I have to work hard, so incredibly hard, on forgiving my mother.
It's a HUGE flaw I have and I have asked God for help on this,
I've done my best to do it on my own.
I know she did the best she could in her situation, that isn't lost on me, but my heart still hurts over what I've been through and what the cost of a relationship with her as an Adult child is.
Just today, she brought up bullshit from my childhood and twisted it to "use it against me", it sucks.
So I continue to work on forgiving her for what she's done and continues to do.